So it occurred to me that I’ve never had properly intimate sex with someone I was in love with.
With Jomi, yes we were in love, we had sex, but it wasn’t so connecting and deep. With Igor, we connected but I wasn’t in love with him. I really do wonder what deep connecting sex would feel like in a loving relationship. One day I’ll know.
Anyway, I’m buying a house! I have a viewing tomorrow. My parents have been really pushing me to find somewhere but I’ve been reluctant. But now that I have a viewing, I’m actually so excited! I’ll have my own space, something and somewhere that is mine. And I can get a pet!! Amazing!
I also need to learn how to drive. I’ve done 20 hours of lessons but I seriously need to get a move on, so that’s up there on the agenda.
I literally have so much going on, I have no excuse to be complacent.
- Buying a house
- Learning to drive
- Running a meetup
- Creating YouTube content
- Indulging in my craft
- Starting a fashion line
- Going to the gym
- Partaking in church activities
I’m too much of a Jack of all trades, but I can do it all and succeed while I’m doing it.
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One memory of Tank from last week keeps springing to my mind and cracking me up.
Backstory: Tank and I usually go out for an hour long walk after lunch and each time we take different routes to mix things up.
This particular day, I asked Tank which direction he wanted to go in and he answered the shortest route so he could get away from me as soon as possible.
I threw a strop and was like, ‘fine! I’m not walking with you anymore’ then refused to walk anywhere near him, making sure I was at least 20 steps behind him. He too refused to move and kept turning round to beckon me forward.
I told him I’d only walk with him if he said ‘I want to be in your presence’. He was like no, that he wasn’t going to get told what to do and then instead said, ‘I want to walk with you’ before defiantly adding that he didn’t have to say what I asked of him, but he’d say it his own way instead.
It made me smile and I went and joined his side.
It’s a cute little memory. ‘I want to walk with you’. How quaint.
That’s my quote of month!
Got it!!
Funnily enough, my favourite quote is:
Don’t walk behind me; I may not lead. Don’t walk in front of me; I may not follow. Just walk beside me and be my friend.
– Albert Camus
This really does tie into mine and Tank’s friendship. Maybe that’s why his little comment makes me smile so much.