I told you I wouldn’t leave it too late before updating my journal. Currently hyped up on Burna Boy but at the same time feel so sleepy.
I did a presentation at work. I took the lazy way out and read the notes word for word because why not? Either way, it went well. I have two more presentations to give over the next week and then I’m free. To be honest, I knew what the role was before accepting it, and I do love speaking to people and presenting, so this is exactly what I want from a job but sometimes I just can’t be bothered.
I invited my boss and his wife round for dinner. I told him I appreciated him as a boss as I’ve had shitty bosses in the past and Telis and I would love to host him and his wife. It’s good to have your boss on side because everything in life hinges on interpersonal relationships. Muwahaha. So just waiting for a date to have them over.
Ok, now that I have all the boring bits out of the way, let’s get to what I really want to talk about!
Telis and I had baby making sex! Because of my inane fear of infertility from never being accidentally pregnant, I managed to convince him to finish inside of me ONCE around ovulation time. So, yeah. We could be pregnant. That being said, I had my cervical screening the day we tried for a baby and since then, or maybe since ovulation, I’ve been cramping. It feels like ovulation pain where you get those one sided twinges. I don’t want to read anything into it because I’ve had pregnancy scares where I’ve read into everything single symptom and had my period arrive like it had no intention of going anywhere.
But, but, but! I was also extremely dizzy today! It was weird. I was preparing for my presentation and all the talking I was doing got me really dizzy.
*Now listening to Burna Boy – 23*
Just taking a quick peek of my last entry to see what I said about pregnancy. Actually scrap that. I remember that I’ve written on many occasions that I’ve never managed an orgasm and then I went online counselling to fix shit and well…
I think my orgasm style is very mini waves that are continuous. I’ve never had the big explosions that you see in the media only quick little bursts that make me convulse (I’m talking as if I’ve had many. No. This is a recent occurrence, like the last three months or so). And I feel like I have orgasmed because I always go deaf! I don’t think sex alone would make you go deaf. I go deaf. Like I properly can’t hear much and then I get a bit of tinnitus with proper ringing in my ears. So me saying that I’ll marry the man who gives me my first orgasm – guys, it was me. I gave me my first orgasm, with my vibrator! But my husband helps of course. Our baby making sex was intense and the non-baby making sex we had the day after *chefs kiss*.
Yeah, so that’s the news. Maybe we’ll get pregnant with one attempt. We had baby making sex only once but you know what they say; it only takes one time. So, fingers crossed!
I’m just worried about the whole house buying process. I think we’ll have to take a break for a few months, so maybe baby will end up coming before house, I don’t know but we’ll figure it out.
I can’t wait to have a kid!! The only thing is if we don’t end up pregnant this month, we probably won’t try until March next year. But I’m more excited than I thought I’d be so maybe I can convince Telis to have us start trying properly this month. But at this point it is baby or house and March seems like a good time to start house searching again and thinking about conceiving.
We haven’t told anyone we tried conceiving this menstrual cycle. As far as anyone knows, we’re not interested in having kids right now and when we’re ready we’ll start. If we do end up pregnant, we won’t tell anyone until about three or four months in.
Ok dreams. I don’t dream, but when I do, I try to record them. Last night’s/this morning’s(?) was weird, not that dreams ever make sense. I titled it Trains and Cars.
At the train station in Capital City (?) trying to get back to [where I live]. Met a girl. All services to [where I live] were cancelled and I didn’t know which trains to take. Also found [old school friend] who was coming back to [where I live] with me as we had an event at 8pm. The time was 7:58pm or something so I asked her if we should get a taxi? She said no, getting the bus should be fine. Google maps said take bus 88 (?). We walked through the train and I gave my number to the boy and girl who I had met earlier and who were sat next to each other. The next day, the girl texted me, her name was already saved as “lovely [name]”. In the morning, I witnessed a man trying to steal a car. The first car, the door was unlocked and I was shouting at him that I could see him. Then that car disappeared and he moved onto the Ferrari, whilst I kept shouting at him.
Trains and Cars – a Dream
There was a strange board game that I was playing and for those who were on maternity leave, they had to use an umbrella to hold their place out in the game. There were random faces playing with me and something about an electric toothbrush – I think one toothbrush head ended up getting stuck in another toothbrush.
I went outside to confront the car thief.
Yeah, makes no sense. What stands out to me is the number 8 appears quite a few times. I wish I could remember the finer details but that was the most I could remember when I awoke. I don’t even want to try and decipher it because it probably means nothing.
Ok, that’s it. I guess the next time a write I’ll either be pregnant or not. Let’s see!