What a week!
Dizzy spells and nausea that started on Tuesday, went from a pregnancy scare to a diagnosis of a urinary tract infection to more of a pregnancy scare, which has left me more than confused.
Story time!
Tuesday morning, just before lunch, I started feeling light-headedness, the kind you feel with motion sickness but without the motion. I was like, ‘huh… what’s going on?’ I stayed at work to eat lunch just in case a hungry belly was doing the damage. But the dizziness persisted and I went home. My period had also started three days early, three days before so I was suffering from tender breasts – as I do. The only difference was that, usually, after the first day, but latest by the second day, my breasts would stop hurting completely. This was the third day and they hurt, why? I put it down to the emergency contraception pill that I took two weeks before, they tend to reap havoc on your hormones.
So, I knew why my breasts hurt but why was I dizzy and nauseous? Was it still because of the pill? Was I losing a lot more blood than usual and becoming anaemic? So many questions and no answers. But what if I was… pregnant?
What if by taking the pill on the day that I ovulated I had rendered it useless? What if it couldn’t delay my ovulation in time and so an egg got released and fertilised? What if the pill had caused my period to start three days early before the little embryo had time to implant into my uterus? What if I had my period while having a fertilised egg inside me? What if I’m pregnant despite having my period? What if my breasts still hurt because I am with child and the dizziness and nausea are signs that indeed am pregnant?
Enough was enough, even though for most of Wednesday I felt fine, the light-headedness and nausea came back as I was going to bed. I felt terrible. I almost threw up. Thursday wasn’t any better and so I took my arse to the doctors. I gave a urine sample and he checked my pee for whatever doctors check for. And lo and behold he found something, and it wasn’t pregnancy. There was an infection in my urine. A whole infection, eating away at me. But he also did say that he didn’t get a result on the pregnancy test and that I should test again in a week’s time. So I left the doctor’s office without much being answered. Fair enough I had an infection, but was that what was causing the dizziness and nausea? And it was day five of my period, why did my boobs still hurt? What was the pill’s doing and what was the infection’s? See, I still had questions. Maybe I was pregnant. Why did he want me to still test? Surely, me being on my period and him not getting a positive result on the pregnancy test would be enough of an answer, but all it has done is leave me with more questions.
Telis and I spoke extensively about having a baby. He was actually quite receptive to it. He’d be happy having a baby with me, even though we’ve only been together two months. He’s thought about all the things he’d have to do to provide for our child. How we’d have to get married so that he could preserve my honour (ha!). He’s been lovely and I don’t worry with him. I worry about being pregnant but I don’t worry about having him by my side. He promised me he’d be a good husband and a good father. I trust that. He almost makes me wish that maybe I was pregnant…
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Today is day six of my period; it’s trickling to a stop. I’m currently at work, feeling a little lightheaded. My breasts still hurt, but very mildly. I’ve decided I’m not pregnant. I have ordered a pregnancy test but I won’t use it. I don’t want to know. It’s always negative so there’s no point wasting it. I’ve clearly had my period so there’s nothing to doubt. My sore breasts is a side effect of the pill and the dizziness and nausea is due to the infection I’m harbouring. If my symptoms persists I’ll take the test but for now, I have my answer. The end.
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I feel wobbly.
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I did a test and it came out negative. I’m relieved. But my boobies still hurt, which sucks. Stupid pill. Either way, I’ll do another test next week like the doctor suggested.
And… Happy two months to Telis and I!