I did it.
I quit my job.
Finally.
I
AM
FREE!!!
It’s been a long time coming but I’ve finally done it. I’m just perplexed as to why I didn’t feel happy or sad about it. I guess it’s too early to really feel anything. I’ll wait until my last week to see how I feel.
I did it on Tuesday. I walked into a meeting room where my boss and the lady from HR were with letter in hand and they pretty much deduced what I was coming in the for. The first thing my boss said was, “Just as you were getting really good.” Err, thanks?
Talk about leaving it to when I’m leaving to update me on my performance. Well fuck him and fuck them. I cannot and will not even.
Now I’m just counting down the days: there are 3 weekends between today and my last day, the 23rd July, which means my work days are numbered. 13 days to be precise.
I turned down Company V and I feel so terrible. The guy who interviewed me sounded so disappointed on the phone. My poor little heart deflated. I don’t know why I feel particularly sad about it, they’ve rejected me at least 5 times in the past but whatever.
I’ve been trying to decide on my new job title: Technical Consultant or Solution Architect. I want to go with Solution Architect – it sounds better and more important. My official job role, however, is as a Pre-Sales Technical Consultant but architect/consultant, same difference.
It’s been a good 3.5 years to be honest. I’ve grown a lot and I’m very ready for this next chapter of my life. With this increase in salary, I should be able to pretty much do anything I want with very little financial hindrance. Telis and I are in an amazing place, considering I’m only 26 and he’s 30. We’re blessed and I’m thankful.
I have 12 days between leaving Company H and starting at Company A. Ideally, I would travel but I don’t know where to go and who to go with. Maybe I’ll do some solo travelling around the country. Take myself on a road trip. Haha, I’m such a loner and Telis can’t take time off work either. Boo.
I’m happy. I feel like I’m in a good and fortunate position and it’s really made me think about giving back. Not like donating to charity, not that I can trust NGOs anyway, but more like changing someone’s life – doing something big. Adopting a kid or something. I don’t know, but my spirit is calling me to do something and I don’t know what it is. It’s just this niggling feeling, like a gut reaction but not. Anyway, I’ll meditate and try and tune into my inner psyche to see what it’s saying.
Actually, there has been a lot of stories on Twitter of assault and abuse in Fridaria and each and every story breaks my heart. Just thinking about the little children who suffer at the hands of adults. I just want to throw away the whole country because a lot of this abuse is done in the name of religion and it boils my blood. The ignorance and the stupidity. Christianity is now a cover for the terrible things people do and it sickens me to the point that I can’t get behind religion. I can’t.
Especially Africans. I hate it. They carry religion on such a high pedestal that they’re blinded to their own backwardness. In fact, throw the whole continent away. Anyone stupid enough to condone evilness and use religion as a way to justify it can just disappear. I’m annoyed and disappointed and I’m sad. I know these are my people and I want to just shake them – make them wake up but how? How to educate a whole nation? All I want to do is shield the vulnerable from it. Protect them from the church – the very place that should be protecting them.
Disgusting.
That’s where this need has been coming from – to do something bigger. Wipe out whole nation and rebuild it from scratch, but who has that power? I’ll see what I can do and best believe it will happen.
Fridaria will feel the wrath of Dera. Mark my words.