I keep thinking back to the video chat I had with Cymric.
He’d ordered some books on economics that he wanted me to bring for him on my trip to Cymricland. Anyway he asked me to read a few pages of one book to him. He likes my accent so this was a treat for him really.
And so I read. And I read well. Needless to say he was pleased. But that’s not what I’m thinking about.
What I want to know is HOW FUCKING ROMANTIC IS IT READING FOR SOMEONE?!! There’s just something about sharing a book with another person that’s magical. Granted, it wasn’t a fantasy novel that I was reading and those are the only books I enjoy, but regardless, it just felt so good sharing that moment with him.
We’ve had romantic moments before in the past. Like that one time on his birthday when we shared ice cream together. That shit was romantic as fuck.
Still my feelings for Cymric are platonic but it’s just nice to share these little moments with someone (without them meaning something more).
I do miss him. I didn’t know I could miss someone so much after such a length of time of not seeing them. Usually for me it’s out of sight out of mind.
I spoke with my best friend Junior a few days ago and told him I was going to visit Cymric in his country. Junior said he remembers him and that I really liked him.
Cymric and I were/are really good friends. When he was here in Deraland, We’d go out almost every weekend and just have fun. There was nothing more to it. Just friendship. And I could be myself with him.
Even our little video chat felt like it was the first time in a long time that I could be myself and feel free to be so without any judgement.
Maybe that’s what cheered me up this week. Maybe that’s what forced my bright personality to shine through.
And maybe that’s why I’m happy.