I wanted to do it in the evening. I didn’t want to ruin his day but he insisted on talking to me this morning. I told him that the relationship has moved too fast for me. That at the beginning I felt a lot for him but those feelings have dwindled away and I don’t want to be in a relationship that isn’t right for me.
He said it’s up to me and if I wanted to, I could reach out to him.
Man, I need to stop jumping into relationships. But this feels like the right thing to do.
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I know I’m going to take myself on a journey of self-disappointment. I wanted to take it slow and not have sex for a reason. For this reason. To assess if what I had and felt was real. I suck.
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Relationships aren’t binding. I should stop viewing it as something I’m stuck in.
I also need to stop being so hard on myself. I was honest and didn’t string him along. I can’t help how I feel, or don’t feel. But I don’t think that makes me a bad person.
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I know that I didn’t properly give him a chance. All I know is that the universe duped me. All the coincidences were just that: coincidences.
I probably would have fallen for him. Hard. But single is better.