It hurts. My heart feels like it’s breaking. I can’t believe I’m still here. I can’t do it anymore.
I’ve tried everything. I don’t know what else to do. I don’t understand what I’ve done wrong. I just wish someone would tell me.
I can’t keep going on like this. There has to be an end. One more month and I’ll officially be classed as infertile. I can’t believe this is my life. I didn’t think this would happen to me. But I also knew this would happen to me.
I just don’t know what I’ve done. I’ve always thought I’m a good person. I try to do good to others, help others but I must be doing something wrong.
If it can’t happen naturally after a year, then it definitely means there’s something wrong. Why has my body failed me. What did I do wrong?
I want to scream and shout. I feel so overwhelmed, I don’t know what to do with myself.
Am I a bad person? Is this why this is happening?
I know the right thing to do is to stop wanting kids. I know this is my lot in life.
I’m sad that I have to mourn a life without children but the sooner I accept it, the quicker I can move on with my life.
I can’t be consumed by this. I can’t spend the next x number of years like this. I’m done! I can’t do it anymore.
I always thought I’d be a mother, but there are some things in life you can’t control, so I will say goodbye to this dream and look towards a new one.