Today was a good day. Even though I spent it alone, I had fun.
I started the day off lazily, got a bit bored and went into my head a bit so I got myself dressed and left the house. Bought a new book which I then sat and read by the river for about an hour.
I then bought three packs of strawberries for very cheap, a cinnamon pretzel and went home to indulge in my sweet treats.
I also started watching Hidden Figures, which I’m yet to finish. Before that I actually spent some good time watching some live Dance Gavin Dance videos on YouTube, singing along, really taking it all in.
Then I spoke to Junior on the phone for a bit before heading out for a solo night out. Went to a cafe/bar and sat listening to music for a bit. I was then invited by two Italian men to join them at their table, which I did.
The three of us eventually left and went to another venue where we danced. We then ended the night sitting and chatting for a while. It was cool. They were a bit old, I predict around 35+ but that doesn’t matter. It’s about being around and enjoying good company. And I did!
Numbers and goodnights were exchanged and now here I am in my bed listening to some Silverstein because rock music is serene.
I feel like I’m back in my element. I have the most fun when I’m alone and single. I don’t feel lonely, in fact, I have too much fun and this is what I miss – being me. I don’t think a relationship will interfere with that if it’s the right one. The wrong one and I become depressed. Maybe what I need is a long distance lover. That way I can have the best of both worlds – my freedom and love.
I’m happy. Even if I don’t get into a serious relationship for a while, knowing that I have options will keep me content.
Now to meditate then sleep.
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But before I sleep. My good friend Winter travelled to visit me yesterday! You know how I said I was going to surround myself with friends, well that’s what I’m doing. I saw Winter this week, I’m seeing Sana next week and Cymric the week after.
It was so good seeing her. We had a good catch up. Drunk lots of alcohol and went our separate ways. But it was just so good having a friend! It literally meant so much to me her coming to visit me.
This is what I need. Friends.
But I also need to make new friends, you know? At least people who I can impromptu see. All my close friends are far away and I don’t see myself becoming BFFs with Igor, so going out alone is what I do now to make it happen.
Man I’m happy. This is me. This is the Dera Igor never got to see because I was so miserable.
THIS. IS. ME.
Now sleep!