I bought a car on Wednesday! I love it! It’s a cute little 2011 Renault Clio. I’ve named him Nebuchadnezzar or Nebby for short because he will, for sure, dominate the roads! I drove him from CapitalCity 40 miles/64 kilometres back to Deraland. How I thought that was a good idea is beyond me. Going down the motorway/highway for the first time in a car that I’m unfamiliar with was a very brave feat and I can’t believe I got it and myself back in one piece. I stalled a lot though.
I’m still very nervous to drive around and pretty much still getting used to the car. This morning, a 10 minute journey to work took me one hour – I kept going the wrong way and stalling. God knows this driving thing will take a lot of getting used to.
I’ve had to restructure my finances to be able to have money always available for the car. It’s an expense that isn’t necessarily needed but the experience I’ll gain from driving around will be worth it, especially if I want to drive my kids round.
Telis said we can start trying for a baby in January but actually, I think we should wait. I’d love a child whenever it comes and if it happens, I’ll welcome it but as long as I have the choice, I think I’ll wait, at least until the end of next year.
I had my car serviced today. The mechanic said everything is perfect with it, so at least I have that peace of mind and know that I won’t be spending much money on getting anything fixed any time soon. Good buy. I bought it from a young couple. So lovely. I managed to get 7% off the car, which I used towards making the car road legal. I love Nebby. So clean inside and out. Low mileage and it’s been very well looked after, it’s definitely a good car and worth the money. I think I probably paid a little less than what it may be worth. It has a satnav built in and Bluetooth and all the other gadgets that makes a car not boring to drive.
I don’t even want to talk about my drive from CapitalCity to Deraland with Nebby on Wednesday. I was using my phone to navigate me and at one point it fell on the floor and I was trying to reach for it and started swerving all over the place. I was, for sure, going in the wrong direction and I had no idea where I had to go. I tried not to panic but I did a bit. I pulled over at a service station to sort my life out, reposition my phone and then I continued my journey of stalling and getting lost. It was a trying experience. I was alone and I didn’t know if the car I was sold was rotting away on the inside waiting to break down on me in the middle of the highway.
However, I am proud of myself. I made the decision to buy a car and I restructured my finances around it so that I’m always prepared for the unexpected. By the time I have kids, hopefully I’d already have a mortgage in place so that all my savings would go towards raising my family. With mine and Telis’ salary combined, I think we will be more than ok. I just need to get a new job that pays more than what I’m earning now. I already make enough for me to put aside 38% into savings, which is good but if I could increase it to 50% then I’d live a very comfortable life with my family, house and car.
The job hunt is going. I have a few interviews. Some I’m not really interested in, others that I’d give a chance. However, I want to stay in Deraland with Telis so I’m hoping to get a job close by and since I can drive now, I have the freedom to go out of the way a little.
Generally I’m content, happy and very much in love. Mine and Telis’ relationship is something that has become a part of me, like how my name is a part of me, and it’s not something I really think about on the day to day, it’s just something that is.
My silly boyfriend told his parents we’re getting married next month and they almost had a heart attack since we’ve only been together for a short amount of time. I don’t think I’m ready to be engaged to anyone let alone get married. I’ve done the whole engagement thing before and I just want it to be right – the right person at the right time. I’m in no hurry. I would love to get married and start a family like yesterday if I could, but I take ownership of my own life, and the same way I broke off a five year relationship with the guy I was engaged to is the same way I’ll say no to a proposal from the wrong person. Life is real and I don’t like to mess around.
I’ve been a little unwell for a few days. I have a bit of a cold and I’ve just felt generally terrible. Today, I feel a little better but I’m still sneezing and coughing around.
My boss just came over to give me work to do after however many months! I made sure not to smile. Dera is not impressed. It’s fine. I’ll be out of this hellhole before I know it.
I can’t wait to see Nebby again! Hopefully he drives even better than he did before. I’m just waiting for the mechanic to drop him back to me. Junior accurately described a car as a child. You need to feed them, look after them, keep them clean, spend hella money on them. But Nebby is my baby. I’m so happy with my purchase!
I drove Telis around last night around midnight to a 24 hour supermarket. I just wanted to get inside my car and get some practice, especially since I’d be driving to work (disastrously) the next day. I just need to gain my confidence. But Nebby and I will find our balance soon enough.
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I can’t help but feel triumphant! 100% my boss wanted to get rid of me but HR probably didn’t let him so now he’s stuck with me. He’s finally given me work to do, pwhahahaa!! Probably quite reluctantly but it means I’m not getting laid off. I’m still searching for jobs either way but now I can go at my own pace and apply to the ones I really want.
Yes motherfucker!
I’m never smiling at him again though. I’ll be civil but no more nice Dera.
In fact, I forgot to mention my meeting with HR. The way we were both bullshitting each other. Them feigning ignorance, me feigning injury, it was funny. I told them that I haven’t been sleeping because I’ve been very anxious and my health has been impacted (cause for legal action?) and I was even on the verge of tears. I think that’s acting at its finest. You think I’ve lost any sleep over them? No thanks!
I even took Wednesday off because I got no sleep the night before as I was worried about driving Nebby back by myself, but I told my boss I couldn’t come in because I’d been struggling to sleep for a while (a little lie) and the night before I’d gotten no sleep because of how anxious I’ve been (very true). I even had a headache from car searching too much but I made sure to mention the headache and the cold I had, just so that he would know how much he was “impacting me”. I can play this game! Yes, I was unwell, but it generally had nothing to do with work. Ha ha!
I’d say that’s a point to me.
Your move, my dear company.
Little Nebby is back! I’m starting to get a bit nervous about driving him home but I’ll do what I can! The biting point of the clutch was a little high for my liking so hopefully they’re lowered it a bit. No more stalling, please!!
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So I went for a drive this evening with Telis and Kirby and the good news is, I’ve stopped stalling, however, I almost killed us all.
Apparently when I make one mistake I go into my head and I start panicking and then everything starts going wrong and I stop driving safely. Maybe I’m just too much of a perfectionist, I don’t know. I know I’ve only been driving independently in Nebby for three days and can’t expect to be perfect straight away but I want to at least have a degree of competency. I just feel like a terrible driver.