I was really sad yesterday. The offer I put into the property I wanted was accepted then fell through yesterday because a higher offer was submitted and accepted by the owner. I was so happy that I was getting such good value for money. The property had so much potential but alas it just wasn’t meant to be. I just don’t think it was very fair. My offer was accepted and he’d given me two weeks to sort out a mortgage and survey and I was well on my way to doing that but now everything has been stopped in their tracks and all I’m left with is sadness and betrayal.
I’ve also had to cancel my driving test that was meant to be on Thursday. I’ve had to forfeit the money I paid for it, which was quite substantial, but it’s fine, it just gives me one less thing to think about, considering, early August I’m being kicked out, with no home to buy and no room to rent. I’ve cried my tears know I need to pick this shit up and sort it all out one by one. My most immediate priority was my driving test, there was no point running around trying to find a car I could hire for Thursday. Losing the money for the sake of my peace of mind is worth it. Now I need to sort out where I’m going to live come August, but Telis made a suggestion I stay with his friend who lives alone in a five bed house he bought, haha! Maybe I’ll do that, at least I can do short term and I won’t be bound to any contract. Nor would a deposit be required so that’s extra money in the bank.
Two things solved. Now back to house hunting. Maybe this falling through is a blessing in disguise. Let’s see what happens.
This weekend was beautiful. I was at home in CapitalCity on Friday and return Saturday afternoon to spend it with Telis. We went shopping and walked around town. Then on Sunday we did some house chores then went to the park to read. We bought drinks and ice and relaxed in the shade of a tree. It was simple but nice. That’s my idea of a good life.
Things with Telis are fine. Perfect in fact. He completely knows how to deal with me when I’m anxious or sad or however else I may be feeling. He never makes me feel worse than I already do and I actually seek his comfort. I like that he makes me feel safe. I don’t really have much to report about the relationship other than I’m feeling comfortable and I’m happy with how things are progressing despite my own apprehensions.
I’m chasing for more money at work. Let’s see if that’ll happen. I feel so bad that my parents are putting down so much money for me to buy a house. I’m not so sure I’m entirely comfortable with it. So I’ll push for a salary increase so that I can get a bigger mortgage and they can give me less. Maybe me losing that property was for the best.
My shopping trip with Telis on Saturday was productive. He is a bit chubby so he’d drown his body in oversized clothes which just didn’t look great. But he bought things that fitted better and made him look less uncomfortable in his skin. He is such a little nerd, posing about with confidence in his quirky and awkward ways. He’s cute.
Apart from a little blip in my emotions yesterday, I’m ok. I think it is fine to have a sad day. Be sad then move on and get shit done!