I drove into work this morning! I did it flawlessly. I’ve even stopped stalling! The only issue I really have is that my first gear is a little stiff. I’m going to get someone to look at it for me. I mean, considering it’s just been serviced I don’t see how an issue like that could be missed.
I’m thinking about driving home for Christmas. I’m a bit nervous because of the distance. Plus I’m yet to actually put any fuel into my tank (I bought it with a full tank), so I’d have to eventually figure out how to do that.
I’ve decided to withdraw all the money I’ve invested because the way the market is moving right now fills me with no confidence, I’ve already gone into negative return but thankfully it’s gone back up again, plus I need liquid cash because my liquid assets are running low on account of holidaying loads and whatnot.
In the New Year, Telis and I will start house hunting together. I’m just fed up of us living in different places. Nebby is parked at my place but I spend most of my days at Telis’ place and so we have to walk some distance to pick Nebby up in the morning.
I shouted at Telis on Friday and I feel really bad. I got stressed because I was driving and I kept going the wrong way, and I was meant to be picking up Kirby so I told Telis to call him to let him know I’d be running a little behind. Then Telis started saying that calling Kirby wasn’t important and I should just focus on the road, then I shouted at him and told him to just call Kirby. And I feel so, so bad because I never shout at anyone and I snapped at my baby boy.
I’m feeling less and less anxious when driving but I guess it’s just a case of building up my confidence. I don’t want to be getting stressed from it and I definitely don’t want to be shouting at the man I love because I’m nervous.
But I guess he has to see me at my worst sooner or later. I am very much in love with him and he doesn’t deserve having me snap at him.