My dear Journal, it has been a while! Man, it’s been an eventful few weeks.
I’m not really sure where to start. Nothing bad has happened, in fact everything has been perfect but there’s just been one thing that’s been bothering me. On the 3rd of this month, it was mine and Telis’ fourth month anniversary and he took me out for an expensive dinner. I was truly happy being with him, our relationship has been great so far. But then I started to feel sad that evening. In fact, I started crying.
I was gripped by guilt, I felt like I was betraying my past love for Jomi by being happy with someone else. I wept for a love that once was, a love that was meant to be forever, and I felt bad that it had been replaced by something new.
I told Telis and he said I was allowed to be happy. And I know I am – I want to be but it’s hard sometimes, especially when once in a long term relationship. The fact that Telis and I are even talking about marriage and starting a family just makes me feel so scared. This was something once promised to me by another and see how that all fell apart. But anyway, whatever.
Telis and I spent five days on an Island in Telisland. It was amazing! We stayed at his friend’s hotel and had a lot to eat and drink. Our room had a beach view so we woke up everyday to the sound of waves. I met a lot of Telis friends, who were all lovely. But the bond I made with some little kitties is what I will cherish the most. The hotel had a family of cats who lived on the grounds and they were so cute! I’d pick them up and hold them – one even fell asleep on me; such affectionate creatures. I’m going back so that I can adopt some! I want cats now!
Telis’ friend, whose hotel we stayed at, was such a lovely host. He kept paying for everything! He rarely let us pay for anything but there was one time we went out for seafood and I said I needed to go to the toilet and I snuck away to instead pay the bill. He wasn’t happy about that! But he’d been so generous, it was the least we could do. Coming back was a little sad. Telis and I both experienced major kindness from everyone we met, so naturally we both shed a tear or two the night before we left. I cried mostly for the cats.
I spoke with Telis‘ mother on the phone on Friday. She’s so lovely, she said she’d like to talk to me more often because I’m a lovely girl. She also asked if I’d taken a jacket with me and that she’s sorry if she’s being motherly but she cares about me. Then she asked if Telis‘ anxiety bothered me, which it doesn’t at all. She’s such a lovely lady. I got lucky with my pick of mother-in-laws. I’m glad!
I wish I journaled day by day during these past few weeks but really, I’ve just been really happy and there hasn’t been much to report.
I mean, travelling with Telis was a breeze. It’s always easy with him so I wasn’t worried. We didn’t stress each other out or annoy one another because that’s just how perfect we are for each other.
But in other news, my sister Elfa came to visit me this weekend in Deraland. She arrived yesterday and Telis and I took her out for drinks and then food. We gave her a tour and then chilled with her. She likes Telis, which is great! She said he’s caring and loving, which is absolutely true. And Telis enjoyed her company. He took us out for table tennis today so that she wouldn’t be bored. He’s lovely. She’ll leave tomorrow while I’m at work.
My website for my business has taken some steps backwards. I’m really annoyed. I won’t talk about it just yet, but I’m hoping to get all testing done by the end of this month and then I’ll start inviting vendors to join and hopefully I can properly launch in January 2019!
Either way, I’m happy. It’s back to work tomorrow, annoyingly, but it’ll just give me time to work on my business. I’ve actually registered it as a company, which I’m not legally allowed to do because contractually, at work, I can’t have a second job. So I will put the company under my sister’s name.
Anyway, bedtime. Until next time Journal.