Ugh…!
My period is late. Instead, all I have is pain, pain and more pain. I’ve had some serious stabby, sharp pain in my lower left abdomen since about 7 days post ovulation (DPO). These last two days though, it has really upped the ante! Fucking excruciating.
Period should have arrived yesterday (11DPO) if it wanted to be predictable or today, if it wanted to be a little bit wild but so far, only a little bit of spotting this morning and nothing since.
I know it is 100% coming though as my temperature has dropped for two days in a row, so it’s not a case of me being pregnant – that I will not be – it’s just my body being annoying. Plus, I’ve been cramping like I should be gushing red right now! It really does feel like the blood is trying to force its way out of me but my body is reluctantly stopping it.
I’m currently using 80mg of progesterone cream per day but I don’t think that’s enough to stop my period as last time, I was on the pessaries, which were 400mg, and I still managed to spot and then my period started the next day. So, I suppose tomorrow, 13DPO, is D-Day! Or perhaps I got my ovulation day wrong and my period will be somewhat on time.
If it doesn’t start tomorrow then I’ll be shocked! But I still will not take a pregnancy test because I still will not be pregnant!
Ok, so I could take a pregnancy test and confirm what I already know, but I think I really would prefer the surprise of a missed period, although this one won’t be missed, just unfashionably late.
I feel hopeless, for real.
Right now, about 7:20pm, all pain has stopped, and I think that is a precursor to my period starting as I don’t usually cramp while I’m bleeding. I’m going to go check in the bathroom now.
So, if I look closely, I can see a very small amount of light brown spotting on the tissue but nothing more and no period so far. The night is still young so it could make an appearance in the next few hours! In the meantime, I’ll continue taking progesterone until I don’t need to anymore.
So annoying. I know I say I want answers and I could easily do the one thing that’ll give them to me, but I really can’t face the disappointment, but then again, maybe the disappointment will make it easier for me to sleep tonight. Whenever my period is due, the apprehension makes me struggle to sleep and I end up waking up really early. I’ve done so these past few days but if I know what to expect for tomorrow then maybe sleep will be much better tonight.
Grr! My body just needs to hurry up and do its thing!