I’m about that gym life again! I went to an abs fitness class yesterday and my whole body is just hurting. And there is no way I can do leg day with my upcoming driving test so I’ll just have to rest my upper body for a few days…
I’m going to Capital City tomorrow to meet up with an ex turned friend. I wouldn’t really call him my ex though. I can count the number of times we’ve kissed on one hand and the number of times we’ve had sex on zero hands. It was all long distance. We met, then he travelled back to Fridaria where he stayed until we broke up, with maybe one trip back down again. Plus we were both kids. I’d just turned 18, and he was my first boyfriend. I did like him, but seven years later, I can see it was quite juvenile. So as far as I’m concerned, he’s just an old friend. We speak now and again. Maybe on average, once per year, maybe less, but it’ll be nice to catch up with him face to face.
I was so moody last night. I think it’s because I was meant to go out with Kirby but it didn’t end up happening. I’d dressed up, put my eyeliner on and everything so I was a bit annoyed. And to make things worse, I was missing Telis like crazy and I hated so much that I missed him. And I hated even more that I love him, because that shit affects your emotions and that’s a level of vulnerability that I do not like.
This is the last time I’m falling in love. If this one doesn’t work out, that’s it. I’m done. There’s so much that goes into a relationship. So much of yourself, your heart, your sanity. And I don’t know if I want to keep giving and giving, it’s scary.
I like being in control of my life. I like to know what exactly I’m aiming for and the potential outcomes. Relationships don’t follow any rules so it could go any damn way it wants. But I don’t want to keep diving into uncertainty. So really, this time, it’s all or nothing.
I could potentially be meeting Telis’ parents next month. Even though we are going to Telisland in October, Telis has been invited to a wedding in September and he wants me to come too.
Also why are protein bars so dense?
I am pretty willing to meet his parents. I just hope that they don’t think that it’s too soon. It probably is too soon, but then again, we were already booked holidays together after like a day dating.
I still feel like he could be the best thing to happen to me or the biggest calamity of my life. I think he’ll be both. I’ll have such a happy life with him and then at age 97, he’ll die and leave me all alone. And that indeed will be a calamity of great proportion.
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We’re Facebook official! I’ve never been Facebook official with anyone! Not even with my ex fiancé! To be honest I was super apprehensive because I’m a private person but this feels right. I don’t regret doing it. However, I did hide the post from the timeline so that it wouldn’t appear to everyone, because I’m awkward like that. But that’s how I want it.
My friend Kirby still has my bank card and I want it back! I haven’t been able to get a hold of him today. I know he isn’t splashing my cash, but we agreed on him borrowing it for a single day and it’s been like three. This is why you can’t do nice things for people… It’s annoying.