I spent the weekend at home, driving with my dad in preparation for my test on Friday. Never ever drive with a family member. My dad stressed me more than his car did. Not only did he gripe over my lack of gear changing, he told me that if I couldn’t change gears properly then I should be driving automatic. Firstly, I change gears when necessary. Secondly, my instructor is qualified – he isn’t. But it was good. My confidence on the road has been greatly improved. Considering that I was driving on unfamiliar roads and doing well, I’m proud of myself. His car is so different to my instructor’s car. I could never find the biting point on his clutch and when I did, it was never enough to actually move the car. I had to add gas and sometimes I’d stall because his biting point is in a very high up position which means when I moved my feet away, the clutch wouldn’t have far up to travel so would be released too fast and the car would stall. All in all, I’m very pleased.
I’ve rejected the cyber security role at work, it seems too boring. Also, the offer I put in for the property was rejected over the weekend. I’m going to offer a little bit more and ask them to throw in the furniture too.
Things with Telis are great. I love spending time with him. I like everything about him. He is home. He’s the homeliest home I’ve ever had. I was doing a poo in his en suite bathroom yesterday and I poo-farted and not only did I scream internally, I let out an outward scream, wiped myself and ran out of his bathroom, ran out of his room and hid. How embarrassing. I don’t care how comfortable I’ve made him feel about pooping, I’m not yet at that level myself. I’m cringing so hard. But as I said, he is home. He made me feel safe and unjudged. I’m still embarrassed but he was sweet about it.
He and I speak loads about the future. I know we’re still very new but we’re both dreamers and it’s nice. We spoke about marriage, about children, about everything. We’re going to have a traditional Fridarian engagement and then a Telisan wedding in Telisland. We even watched wedding videos on YouTube to show our cultures to each other. He said he’d probably start saving up for a ring next year. We spoke about what our kids could look like. I said I wouldn’t mind them having his nose, lips and forehead. He said he’d like them to have my cheeks and ears. We’d definitely have two kids and adopt one – he’s happy to adopt, which I’m glad about. We spoke about our family home. We want a three bed with a garden. We’d be rich AF and move to CapitalCity where we’d be able to afford any home we wanted but sometime next year, he’d probably move in with me into the apartment I buy and we’d start saving up for our wedding and home.
We’re even planning holidays together. In October we’re going to Telisland. Then in Novemeber, for my birthday, he’s taking me to Paris. This week we’ll book our flights and hotel to Telisland. I’m excited. I know October is still far away but I have faith in us to last until then; I don’t feel like running away. I don’t even question our relationship. I’m just so at peace within it.
He’s told his parents about me. They know I’m Fridarian, which is a relief. My parents know he exists but don’t know anything about him just yet. My mum did ask about him but I told her nothing. She just asked if I was happy and I said that I was and she said that that’s what’s important – my happiness. My life is in such a good place. Telis feels the same way about his. We’re both living our best lives and it feels amazing.
I have no reservations about him. He really could be my ONE. I don’t want to get ahead of myself after everything I’ve been through but everything just feels so right. He accepts me for who I am and doesn’t want to hinder me. He even said to me last night that he would try hard to never stifle me and to give me my freedom. I appreciate that.
I asked him if he believed in forever. He said he did.
Today is a month since our first date. I can’t believe how quickly time has flown and how fast the relationship has moved. I don’t mind it. I don’t feel suffocated by it. I’m just too comfortable. This is everything I’ve ever wanted. I asked and I received.
I know day by day I’m writing our story and the opening chapters have already captured my attention, it’s only a matter of time before they capture my heart.