I don’t know how to stop hurting. Life just hurts. I feel so alone and I don’t know how to stop all this pain.
Yesterday I spiralled. I went to the river. I wanted to die.
I have nowhere I feel safe. I have no consistency. Even my own boyfriend triggers me. He’s meant to be my safe place and he’s not. I’m just hurting so much.
I know why people self harm. The emotional pain gets too much and you just want something tangible to focus on. Something constant. Something that’s yours.
I want to scream. Shout. I want to feel safe. Safe in someone. But I’m alone. I can’t think of anyone to turn to to hold me. To tell me it’s ok. I just want to be held.
I just want warm arms around me.
I need a confidant. Someone. Anyone.
Help me.