Today!
I’m currently at work. I’m going to do a half day then make my way over to the airport! I’m so excited to see Cymric. I’ll probably hug him so tight and never let go when I see him!
Igor and I ended up in the same lift this morning at work. I said hi, but that shit was awkward AF. Haha! It’s fine. There’s no bad blood between us but I don’t think we can ever be friends.
I’ve taken on a co-organizer for my meetup. She already runs a book club but was thinking of merging her tiny group with mine. I felt it was a good idea as she already knows how to run book clubs and that can be something that she can solely focus on. It’ll take less off my plate, which is good. Delegation and whatnot.
So far, I have 39 people in my meetup group and 18 RSVD’d to the first event. I’m really proud of myself. I’ve even started thinking about the venue; I’ve made an enquiry and everything so all I can hope for now is that it turns out to be a massive success.
Can’t remember if I mentioned going out with the Italian yesterday. Well I did. I was so subdued. I was sleepy and my mind wasn’t really with it. He was kind like usual. But when he ordered me food, I let him know that I didn’t really like some things on the menu and only wanted the beef dish, but he proceeded to order me the beef plus the things I said I didn’t like and I ended up not eating most of it. What I waste. There was also an option between rice and some pancakey thing and he didn’t ask me what I wanted and ordered me the pancakey thing even though I’d wanted rice. He did get me a gift however. It was small but thoughtful. In one of my YouTube videos, I’d said that if I had to choose somewhere to live it would be Jupiter. So my guy decided to buy a whole solar system set and gifted me with the Jupiter.
The gesture was sweet. I’m sure some other lady would cherish it more.
Anyway, today is a good day. The sun is out and I’m happy. I can actually say that. That I’m happy. I don’t think bad or incompatible relationships suit me. Especially when I’m forced to feel misunderstood all the time. Being subjected to constant marginalisation really doesn’t bode well for my mental health. But I’m happy. I’m comfortable with where I am and at peace with everything. My mind is calm and I rarely overthink, let alone think. So it’s great.
Yesterday I realised, or rather, felt, that I was incompatible with the rest of the world. It takes a special kind of person to be with me, I think, and those sort of people are rare. Especially if I want to feel accepted and understood within my relationship. I don’t know if I’d come across anyone like that any time soon. I’d have to travel the Seven Seas to even meet someone who comes close enough.
But it’s ok. Life has a funny way of working out. I’m not worried. Let’s just see what happens.