Let’s get it!
Two 4AA embryos are officially making a home in my womb as of today.
I’m not going to lie, I slept like a baby yesterday. When expectations are at zero, worrying isn’t even on the radar.
Will it work? Probably. Will I have twins? Likely. Will I get to meet them? I don’t know.
Today is day zero so I don’t expect much to be happening in there. The catheter that they placed through my cervix into my uterus, its presence is probably still reverberating through my uterus, so apart from that, I’m not feeling anything that would suggest implantation has started yet. Tomorrow, however, will be interesting.
I don’t know, having gotten pregnant before, I know my body can do it, so it’s not a matter of if (touch wood), but mostly a matter of when. My biggest apprehension will come when I reach 8 weeks, which is around the time I lost my little Oyster. I just hope that them being better grades will mean that they make the distance.
We’ve certainly done better than last time. We made four A grade embryos and four B grades. I’m definitely pleased with our clinic, they’ve been and done amazing!
Now, not only do I need these embryos to stick, I also need them to grow and flourish and survive!
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Looking at my previous entry, it’s funny how I correctly predicted my transfer date. I knew it would be this week and I felt that the most likely date would be the 19th if they decided to start me on progesterone on the 14th day of my cycle. And they did!
It could have been earlier to be honest, because on day 11, my lining was at 8.6mm which is a good thickness, so they could have had me start progesterone the day after, with transfer on the 17th – which was another likely date. But my doctor wanted it to thicken a bit more. I don’t know the final thickness of my lining but I do know it was at least thick enough earlier on.
I’m currently on progesterone injections as well as the usual pessaries and my god those injections suck! The injection site stays super sore for well over 24 hours but the impact on my breasts – ouch! They’re just like period boobs. Stupidly sore and swollen. It’s good to know that they’re definitely working, but my breasts don’t need to be in so much pain! I never reacted this much to the pessaries so it’s a wonder if I was even getting enough progesterone? Maybe I was and now I’m getting too much? Anyway, it’s all speculation.
We’re still keeping this IVF cycle a secret. My family knows I’m in Telisland this time around but they don’t know that I was there two months ago to start the journey. Only a select number of people know we’re doing this, and they’re the people who won’t press or come to us with toxic positivity. I have my friend’s Sana’s wedding next month and my family will be there. If both embryos take, I just hope I won’t be showing yet. I’ll be about 8 weeks so I should be OK. I just want to wait until the second trimester is properly established before telling anyone. I can’t let anyone face disappointment again.
My time in Telisland has been lovely, I partook in most of their Easter traditions and celebrations, it was nice. Telis and I will be leaving on Saturday, so I have a few days to let these embryos take root and then we fly home to our kitty cats.
My sister Elfa has also come out to me. I mean, I always suspected but she finally told me. She’s been scared to tell me, for some reason. I thought I was a pretty easy-going, openminded, non-judgemental person but I guess it’s different when it’s you’re family you’re coming out to. I’m just scared for her and how family will respond to it if she ever shares it with them but that’s something we’ll deal with when we get there.