I don’t want to be chronically depressed. Is that even a thing? How does anyone exist in this state? In a state of incompletion? I have a doctor’s appointment on Friday, I’ll talk to him about it.
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My new phone has arrived! I bought a OnePlus 6 two days ago! I’m happy that I’ve finally upgraded to something that doesn’t resemble a device from 2016. Two years is a long time in the technological world, the difference between my old and new phone is crazy.
Anyway, I think I’m feeling ok. I’m currently at Telis’ place. It’s 11:30pm and I’ve been waiting for him here since I finished from work. Silly Telis. Anyway it’s fine – I won’t be staying up for him.
I’m really starting to like the idea of peer-to-peer custom clothing. There’s a peer-to-peer initiative for almost every industry but not so much this one. The stance I’m be going for is a platform for fashion designers to sell their products but also since we’re living in a body positive era it’ll be like giving everyone the opportunity to buy clothes catered to every shape. I’ll spin it with some feminism/political correctness stuff.
I got a bad review at work. I got graded a C which is really bad. I went straight to HR and told the HR lady that I wanted to move out from the department. I cried. It’s annoying, I wasn’t fed back how terrible I was doing and then suddenly I find out from my half yearly review that I’m doing shit. Thanks! Anyway whatever. I just really, really, desperately need to leave the company altogether. I’m still applying for jobs, but nothing…
Things really do suck, but I don’t want to be sad. I need to count my blessings, however small, so here goes:
- I can afford to buy a new phone without thinking about how much it’s costing me
- I’m in a healthy relationship with someone who loves me more than I think I’ve ever been loved by anyone before
Can’t really think of anything else that’s going for me right now but at least I ain’t dead.
Anyway, if I’m going to suck, I might as well do it well. At least that can be something I succeed at. Woot woot!