I must now write down my thoughts because my mind has been heavy with them. I can’t sleep. So, what is really going on?
Well, nothing major, I’m just really anxious about being pregnant and not being pregnant. I don’t want my period to start but at the same time, if I am pregnant, it’s going to be so exciting. I’ve always wanted to be a mother and this is the one thing I’m sacred that I’ll never have so the fear of missing out on pregnancy every month gets me really anxious.
I know this fear is irrational because i have no reason to fear for my fertility. Anatomically, I am perfect.
This time, we may have been successful. I am so nervous!