I’m having a bit of a panic!
I’m worried that I won’t respond to the higher dose of stims. I’m worried that I’d end up with a dominant follicle that uses up all the medication, leaving the other follicles starved. I’m worried that we won’t get a good number of eggs collected or that we’ll end up with very little embryos. I’m worried that our embryos will be of average quality and will miscarry or not implant. I’m worried about a lot of things.
I’m so anxious.
I can feel my ovaries. Or rather, my down below has a little more activity going on and it feels slightly like cramps. I don’t know if that’s just because of the meds or because my ovaries are growing multiple follicles. I’m so scared for what our results on Friday’s scan will show.
I don’t know what to expect and that scares me.
What if a higher dose produces worse embryos? What if this round is even worse than the first round?
I am anxious!!!!!
I really want good news but there’s always a hurdle to jump. I just want it to go better than last time.
Please let it go better than last time!
I keep trying to find anecdotes and experiences on reddit about people like me who have had too low of a response. I need to know if a higher dose is enough. It has to be…!
My follicle growth chart from my previous cycle definitely shows that with an increased dose that my follicles do grow. I still had six mature eggs despite everything and all six did fertilise. I can’t imagine there being an egg quality issue since all follicles >= 17mm seemed to be mature. But then again, my embryos were of average quality. But whether that was because I was stimming for too long or because of me (or even Telis), I don’t know. I guess we’ll find out.
We did a whole bunch of additional tests here in Telisland including a sperm DNA fragmentation and karyotyping test – all of which came back normal for both of us. So our genetic material seems to be fine. I can only hope for a better result this time.
Now breathe.