Wow, what a terrible night. A colleague was hosting leaving drinks last night, which I attended. Suffice it to say, I drank a little bit too much. I then ended the night with a kebab that just shouldn’t have been eaten.
I ended up awake at 3am with alcohol doing its damage nicely. I literally felt sick and the kebab didn’t help in the slightest. Never again am I drinking on a weeknight. I should have known better. Silly me.
I spoke to my good friend Cymric last night. I’ve actually booked a flight to go and visit him in his home country. I can’t wait to see him. I’m literally so excited. We spoke for ages like we usually do. I updated him on my life and he spoke words that just always seem to make sense. I’m in two minds about seducing him, but I shouldn’t date friends. And I really like him as a person – I wouldn’t want to ruin that.
Cymric is a good guy. He’s one of the people I trust so much. When he was here in Deraland, him and I used to go out a lot. We’d dance, we’d sit and chat, we’d just have fun. I miss his presence in my life. It will be so good to see him again.
I’m just trying to surround myself with people who I know care about me. Remind myself that my perception of what is isn’t actually true. I’m going to see friends and spend time with family and just stay away from people who don’t make me feel good about myself.
I’m always able to find happiness in myself, which is a good thing. I just need to feel that I’m not so alone in this big world.
Cymric is that first step.
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I’m not sad about Igor. I guess my heart was never really in it. Or I didn’t let it. Either way, I’m doing ok. I’m out from my depressive slump and I only see good things happening from here on out. Exciting times!
I’m nervous for the YouTube video I’m releasing today. I really need it to propel my numbers. I’m going to keep my fingers crossed and see what happens.
Also, I still feel sick to my stomach…