It’s like going two steps forward and three steps back. Things were going amazing with us and then suddenly he started talking about the scoliosis that he didn’t have and I was like “what the fuck…?” I was pretty freaked out because every day there’s basically always someone new wrong with him. It’s funny for the most part but then mention something as serious as scoliosis and all that pops into my head is “is this guy going to drop dead on me from the millions of symptoms he has per day?”
And then he got angry at me for getting a bit worried and that almost escalated into something else. All because I’m quiet and inside my head doesn’t mean I like him any less or will break up with him. It just means I’m thinking about what all this means. When I think, I go quiet.
And the thing is, if he really did have a curved spine, I would have noticed. He’s as straight as a ruler and also a self-diagnosed hypochondriac.
Anyway, when he brought all that up I just went into myself and started worrying for him and for myself. Like really? Is this guy healthy at all? But it’s fine. He’s fine. He’s healthy, he’s alive and he’s a very tall ruler.
I’m waiting for the day this relationship gives me more peace than stress. Wondering and waiting…