I’m pregnant!
I’ve never been so scared to take a pregnancy test. I had already tested two days ago at 3dp5dt and got a very faint, barely there line, but today, I felt so sick with anxiety, dipping the test into my urine with shaky, unsteady hands.
I was stuck between the experiences of my last embryo transfer where the test line didn’t progress and my miscarriage with Oyster. It felt like the fate of this pregnancy would be either/or.
So far, the line today has been pretty strong. I’d say it’s equivalent to Oyster’s at 7dp5dt. There’s every chance both embryos implanted but I’m taking things a day at a time and not getting ahead of myself.
As anxious and worried as I am, I really do want to enjoy this pregnancy. I don’t want to look back and only be reminded of a miserable time. I want to remember that I tried to be happy.
I have my beta blood test on Friday. Since I love predicting things, I’m going to guess that my hCG results will be in the 300s. Whatever it is, all I want is a healthy pregnancy with a healthy baby(-ies).
My symptoms have been pretty strong and dare I say it – obvious. I knew things were happening but I’ve had moments these past few days where I’ve completely freaked out, expecting the worst for my embryos.
The day after my embryo transfer, I woke up to one really red left eye. My blood vessels were completely inflamed. I hadn’t had an injury and or any irritant enter my eye so it was a bit random. The redness persisted for well over 24 hours but started going down the next day. Telis and I, however, came to the same conclusion, that it was a symptom of implantation. Something similar happened with Oyster; I had a random nose bleed, something that never happens. So it seems that my body’s reaction to implantation is burst or swollen blood vessels.
My mother in law took me to the Ophthalmologist who checked over my eyes and said there was nothing wrong. I’m probably losing my 20/20 vision however, but that’s a story for another day.
Anyway, that day (1dpt) was mostly quiet in terms of uterine activity but I did have a moment of heaviness in my uterus. The next day, that’s when things really started ramping up. Lots of non-stop cramps, very itchy skin, aching in my lower back, prominent blood vessels on my hand, wrist and arms. Then 3dpt, more cramps. Telis and I were travelling back to Deraland on that Friday, so I was really conscious about how much the stress of travelling would impact things, but it’s looking like, so far so good. Telis, bless him, wouldn’t let me lift a thing, so he had to handle our two cabin bags by himself whenever any lifting was necessary. I was happy to drag mine along and even carry a backpack, but I made sure not to over-exert myself. Today, I carried my full suitcase upstairs and now he’s not talking to me. Whatever.
I definitely feel relieved and a little less worried. Obviously, anything can happen between now and my blood test but I’ve already surpassed my last transferred embryo, so that’s something. My initial worry was that there would be no line progression, now I can just worry about miscarriages instead!