This embryo won’t be making it. I’ve been testing very-faint, barely-there positives since 3dp5dt. I knew implantation was happening and I got a whole flurry of symptoms but they’ve since reduced, so I’m expecting my period shortly. But at least it tried.
I’ll do another test in four days to check for progression although I’m not expecting anything. I’ve been having terrible cramps today, and they feel like actual period cramps, so it’s basically over for me.
We don’t have the money for another IVF cycle so it’ll probably be in the new year when we’ll have another retrieval. I guess we’re now looking at a 2024 baby. Or maybe no baby at all.
It’s probably my fault for getting too ahead of myself. So I need to stop speaking things out for my future as they won’t happen.
I feel sad. I’m going to be left behind. I’m always left behind. This is my lot in life.