I’ve started reaching out individually to vendors for my marketplace. I’m doing a soft launch – basically a launch that doesn’t have a dedicated start date, I’m just trying to garner interest here and there. I’ve had a few responses already and I can’t wait until my first vendor signs up!
I went to a wedding on Saturday with Telis, it was a uni friend’s big day and it was nice seeing her and other old friends. The only bad thing was we came back with food poisoning. Throughout Sunday, I was bed ridden and both Telis and I were taking it in turns to empty our bowels of nothing other than water. I’m still feeling its effect this morning but I’m much better than yesterday.
I told Telis on Saturday that I was spiralling. I could recognise that I was and I was try hard to know it was just a consequence of my mental state but I couldn’t help the thoughts that were coming into my head. I was contemplating suicide and I told him. The thoughts just kept coming; ‘maybe it wouldn’t be so bad if I got cancer. Perhaps I should jump in front of the train.’ I’m stupid, I know but I’m out of my stupor. No more spiralling. I think my marketplace will be a good distraction. It’ll give me something else to focus on apart from all the not-so-bad things that are happening in my life.