I’m not even sure what I came here to say.
It’s likely we’ll be starting IVF with my next cycle. I’m on cycle day 8 currently and have about 3 weeks before my next cycle is due. The clinic rang me today to confirm our funding was approved and I then booked a consultation for next Thursday to discuss my IVF plan.
Countdown to making baby Dera begins.
I haven’t heard back about the MRI but I’m assuming I don’t have a mass in my brain. I just hope that the medication I’m taking is working to bring my prolactin levels down. I might not be lucky enough to conceive naturally this cycle, but I can only assume that lower prolactin levels would help rather than hurt my IVF chances.
To be honest, I don’t even know what I’m doing this for. I feel like I’ve lost sight of what we’re actually aiming towards. I’m even questioning if a child is something that I want or if I’m just going through the motions of life. I don’t feel joy or sadness at the thought of a child. I feel pretty nonchalant about my life now and don’t really have a vision for where I want to be. I guess I’m just coasting along emotionlessly.
Work is basic but I guess I do need to try harder. I was at an education conference this week. I think it went well. I made colleague friends and had fun, so it wasn’t so bad.
I’m also trying another side hustle. I just need to find something that’ll work. Let’s see how this one goes.