I feel sick.
I’ve never had a miscarriage before. Why haven’t I had a miscarriage before? Loads of people undergoing IVF have at least experienced a positive pregnancy test. That would tell them that sperm and egg can form an embryo and that the embryo can somewhat implant.
Why hasn’t that ever happened for me? What if there’s something wrong that IVF can’t help. I have no idea if my eggs can get fertilised. I have no idea if anything can implant in me. How can IVF work? I have no idea what I’m dealing with.
Where exactly are things going wrong? What is the issue? How can I be certain that IVF will work for us when nothing has worked inside my body? I know it sucks to lose a pregnancy but with a miscarriage, at least you’d know where to look or where to start. What if we start IVF and it’s just the beginning of a very long road because there’s so many things wrong with us.
I don’t think I can do it.
I have to inject myself, have eggs surgically removed and then wait for disappointment and I don’t want to do it.
I’ve never had a miscarriage. I can’t even think where exactly things are going wrong. I do try to picture every point of conception and I can’t understand why it hasn’t worked for us. Where are we falling short? I just don’t know. I’ve only ever had good test results bar the prolactin. Is there something major wrong with Telis‘ sperm? I’m scared we’ll create defective embryos. Something is going to go wrong.
Every time we have tried to start treatment, something has stopped us from moving ahead. I think I don’t believe we will end up starting IVF because something will go wrong, and even if we start, we’ll be surprised in some unexpected way. I’m just waiting for the blow.
Next month will be fun…