I had a catch up with my mother yesterday. Like usual she mentioned Jomi and asked whether if I’d have stayed with him if I’d be happy in the long term.
Well the answer is no.
Last night I couldn’t sleep because every single reason for why we couldn’t be together came back to me. I’d blocked out a lot of things and forgot most of the reasons why but now I remember and it’s haunting me. It’s similar with Igor. There’s very little about our relationship that I can organically remember. I don’t even like going back in my journal and reading the things that happened between us because it just makes me feel like such a fool. But that’s all in the past. I’m happy now.