I said the unsayable. I said it and I meant it. But I still feel awkward AF when it leaves my lips. Yes, I said the L word. Love. (Granted, I was slightly drunk but) I told Telis I loved him. L – O – V – E. I didn’t think I’d ever be able to love again, but here I am. In love.
* Cringe *
Fuck this is sickening…
Ok. Anyway, I’ve seen my friend Winter on several different days in the past weeks. I double dated with her last week and then we went out for lunch together on Friday. On Saturday night, her and her boyfriend came over to Telis’ place and we hosted them. It was a proper adult affair. We made nibbles, Telis prepared cocktails and we all sat and adulted. It was good. I really like her boyfriend. He’s a good guy and he’s good for her. Like usual, Winter got a bit emotional while under the influence of alcohol. She recounted her sexual assault story in private to me and how she was losing her hair. There was a lot more she expressed and I completely feel for her. Getting over an assault and sharing that with the person you’re intimate with isn’t the easiest of things, but I’m fortunate to be brave enough to speak about it with Telis. Winter can’t. She can’t even tell her own boyfriend and she’s afraid he’s going to think she’s frigid when she recoils away at his touch. Poor chica.
Also, Telis overheard me telling Junior that he’s not my type. Awks. Well he isn’t. He isn’t what I’d have paired myself with but that’s the funny thing about life, it gives you what you’re not expecting and it’s sometimes better than the very thing you wanted. So, yes, he’s not my type, but for all the best reasons.
I’m horny… But I’m on my period. How unfortunate. It started four days early because of the emergency pill I had to take, otherwise I could have been getting nicely fucked. Such is life… I’ll just suck a dick, I guess.
I went to comic con on Saturday. Telis was like a kid in a candy shop. He was so excited about everything. But I was in such a cranky mood that I wasn’t able to fully submerge myself in the experience. Telis and I did buy matching Transformers jackets. So fucking nerdy. But it was a good weekend, expect for Saturday evening and Sunday. Telis and I felt terribly ill. He was in and out of the bathroom. We must have eaten something off because our stomachs were doing all sorts, plus I had period cramps on top of all of that. Sucks to be me.
Nothing else to report. Life is great. I’m happy and in love and I’m living my best life. I have a new room which I love, and I’m moving out of that hellhole today. I’ve bought a new wig, I have new jeans. And I have an exciting future to look forward to with my boyfriend.